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Holly Dunn 89

The room was silent except for the soft sound of people quietly crying and the gentle creak of shoes on old wood. 

Clara gripped her mother’s hand, her knuckles white as she stood on tiptoe to peer into the long box where her father slept so still. Someone coughed. A man in a dark suit nodded to another, his eyes shiny like he wanted to cry but tried not to. 

Clara’s heart beat fast, her breath tiptoeing in her chest. She looked at her daddy’s face, smoother than she remembered. He looked soft, like a doll, hands folded over one another. 

She pressed her nose closer to the shiny wood edge. “Daddy,” she whispered. “Time to wake up.”

Behind her, her aunt started sobbing. Clara frowned. Didn’t they know? She tugged her mother’s hand, voice trembling in the hush. “He isn’t gone. He’s just sleeping.”

Her mother wiped under her eye, forcing a smile as if it hurt. “Oh, sweetie. Daddy’s… He’s… in a better place.”

Clara pulled away, voice rising like a bell that wouldn’t stop ringing. “No. Look!”

Now everyone turned. The priest. Her grandmother with her hands shaking. Clara felt all those eyes and wanted to run, but she braced herself.

“He’s smiling,” she insisted. “See? That’s his sleepy smile. He always does that.”

Her uncle drew close, leaned over the coffin, and gently patted her shoulder. “Clara, it’s okay to miss him. Sometimes, we see what we wish.”

“No!” She stomped her foot. “I heard him. He told me goodnight last night.” Her voice wobbled between hope and a shadow of fear.

The grown-ups shared strange glances. ‘The things people say to help a child,’ Clara thought. They don’t even listen. She stared at the white rose tucked by her daddy’s hand, longing to reach for it.

Someone murmured, “Kids don’t understand.” But Clara did not look away. She watched the faint crease around her father’s mouth. That line only came when he was playing pretend asleep, waiting to shout ‘boo’ when she tiptoed by.

Suddenly, a shiver darted through her. She looked again, searching his face. Something was wrong, not with her daddy, but with everyone and everything. She knew his hands—these looked different, too smooth, not big and warm.

A cold draught brushed her cheek. She squeezed her eyes shut, wishing for the deep rumble of his voice. “Daddy?” Her own voice echoed back, thinner than silk.

Whispers flickered around the room, first soft, then stiffer. “Children”, someone said, “see what helps them.”

But Clara didn’t let go of hope. She stepped up and gently kissed his knuckle. It chilled her lips, yet she whispered, “Wake up. I’m here. I need you.”

All at once, another shadow slipped into the quiet space. The door creaked, and a man stepped forward—tall, a familiar shape, but something off. Clara stiffened, her heart twisting in a new way.

Eyes widened as the man moved close. He looked like Daddy. The same dark hair curling at his collar, the same soft smile.  But his eyes… curious, almost scared.

A gasp broke from her grandmother. “Oh my—” She covered her mouth, staring between the man by the door and the man in the coffin.

The man knelt before Clara, his voice gentle, almost musical. “Hello. My name is Samuel.”

Clara’s breath caught. “You—you’re Daddy.”

He shook his head, eyes kind. “No, but I look like him, don’t I? We are twins.”

People in the room blinked, searching for the right words. Her mother almost fell into the nearest chair, face pale as the winter sky. “You—how…”

Samuel reached out, stopping, uncertain. “I live far away. We… we lost touch. I’m sorry I didn’t come sooner.”

Clara stared at Samuel, at the way his eyebrows curved and the way his smile fluttered at the edges. Like her daddy, but soft, like a faded picture. She wanted to run to his arms, but she stayed still, confusion folding inside her chest.

Her aunt knelt beside her. “Your daddy had a brother. They loved each other very, very much. He came to say goodbye, too.”

Clara lowered her head, words caught in her throat. She felt torn between wishing for magic and knowing the truth. 

Samuel’s hand hovered over her head, careful as a butterfly. “Can I sit with you?”

She nodded, a spark of hope flickering. Samuel sat on the hard bench beside her, both their legs swinging above the ground. 

The grown-ups turned away, some wiping tears, some shaking their heads. The priest hummed a hymn so low it felt like wind in the windows.

Samuel whispered, “He loved you very much. Sometimes, people look so alike, it’s almost like a trick.”

Clara peered at his kind eyes, searching for the secret she longed to find. “Will Daddy wake up?”

Samuel exhaled slowly. “No, sweetie. But I’m here. And your mum is here. And everyone who loves you.”

Clara blinked, warm tears sliding down her face. She missed her father’s voice and missed his stories. She pressed into Samuel’s side, letting the sadness and hope tangle up together.

Outside, the sun caught on a window, sending dancing light across the dark room. Samuel squeezed Clara’s shoulder. For a moment, she imagined her daddy, his laugh rolling through the air, brushing away the sadness like sunlight after rain.

She reached out, and Samuel’s hand warmed hers. The world felt a little softer, just enough.

As the music faded and goodbyes were whispered across the room, Samuel knelt by the coffin. 

He whispered words Clara could not hear, but she saw the way he smiled—like Daddy used to, when he said everything would be okay.

Clara closed her eyes, inhaling the memory of her father’s embrace, comforted by the gentle truth: sometimes, hope comes back in a way you never expect. 

And sometimes, love never really leaves at all.

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