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Holly Dunn

Juan’s breath caught the first time he heard the whisper. It drifted across the room like a secret caressed by the breeze, then faded into Diego’s shaky sigh. Standing at the corner, little Diego pressed his tiny hand to the wall and stared with dark, frantic eyes.

“Mommy is here,” he whispered again, soft as the hush before a storm. Silence pressed in, so thick Juan could hear his own heart stumble.

He tried to steady himself. “Diego, mi amor, are you talking to your toy?”

But Diego didn’t flinch. He didn’t blink. He looked at the wall as though waiting for someone to reach out and hold him steady.

Juan swallowed, his chest tight. Just a baby’s imagination, he told himself. Toddlers see spirits, someone once joked. Still, he shut the door more gently that night, afraid even the air would shatter something delicate in the room.

Days bent into one another, soft at the edges. Juan watched his son turn away from his blocks and shuffle toward the pale corner. Diego placed both hands against the paint, his head bowed, lips moving. “Mommy is here.”

He did this again and again, always after naptime. Always the same three words. Nothing could distract him. Not the squeak of his truck, not the clatter of coloured pencils he used to love.

Juan lay awake, blinking at the dark. Claudia’s side of the bed, empty and cool. He remembered how she walked with Diego on her hip, singing softly in the kitchen. Her laughter had filled this apartment. Now his son filled it with whispers.

All at once, Juan’s grief felt fresh, raw as a scrape under salt. He ached to fix something but didn’t know where to start.

He took Diego to the doctor. The tall man in the white coat knelt and asked if he dreamed about anyone special. Diego clung to Juan’s shirt, silent, wide-eyed.

The psychologist smiled gently and slid colouring sheets toward Diego. “Draw whatever makes you happy, pequeño.”

Diego gripped the yellow crayon and scribbled hard, the lines blurring into the shape of a woman with long hair. Next to her, a smaller figure with round cheeks. Juan slid his finger over the picture. “¿Quién es?”

Diego pointed, “Mamá.”

Juan’s breath trembled. He didn’t correct his son. He traced Claudia’s outline, colours pressed so deep they bled through the paper.

He tried a feng shui expert. A kind woman with salt in her hair walked through the apartment, her bracelets jingling. She rearranged Diego’s toys, moved the crib away from the corner, and tied a red ribbon on the door.

The next morning, Juan woke to the familiar whisper. “Mommy is here.”

He watched, helpless as rain behind glass. He began scanning Diego’s face for shadows, studying the way his eyes flickered with hope and fear. The apartment felt smaller, as if grief made the air heavy.

Then one evening, as the sun melted orange over rooftops, Juan sat on the rug beside Diego’s toys. He took a deep breath. “Your mamá loved this lullaby,” he said, his voice rough. He hummed softly, the way Claudia once did.

Diego watched for a moment, then crawled into his lap and pressed his cheek to Juan’s chest. Quietly, Juan placed a photo between them—Claudia, laughing in the rain, holding Diego tight.

Diego traced her smile with chubby fingers, curiosity glowing. “Is Mamá happy?”

Juan felt tears sting his lids, but he nodded, voice hushed. “Sí, always. She loved you so much.”

The days shifted. Diego still whispered, but he smiled more, too. Juan taped photos of Claudia to the walls above Diego’s crib. He told stories—about the time Claudia cooked too much rice, about her funny sneezes, about the way she spun Diego around until they both giggled. Each story fit into the day like a gentle hand fitting into Diego’s.

One morning, Diego called for him—eyes bright, arms outstretched. “Papá! Look!”

Juan hurried over. Scrawled on the wall in crooked, chalky lines: “Mom is always here.”

His heart squeezed. For a long moment, Juan stared. Diego giggled, rubbing his hands together, chalk dust smudging his knuckles.

“Did you write that?” Juan asked, voice shaking.

Diego tipped his head, uncertain. “Mamá helped.”

Juan smiled through his tears. Pain met wonder in his chest, tangled like roots. He wrapped Diego up, holding him close.

Over weeks, small phrases bloomed in soft white chalk. “Mommy loves you.” “All is okay.” Sometimes just a heart, messy but clear. Juan never scolded. He let the stories and drawings fill the empty places.

Neighbours noticed a change. Music hummed from the tiny balcony once again. Laughter, shy but real, drifted through the old white curtains.

One afternoon, Diego stretched his arms wide, spinning in the sunbeam. “Papá, sing with me!”

Juan did. He let the old lullaby carry them both. Diego’s head, warm against his shoulder, was steady and strong. The grief still visited, sometimes sharp, sometimes soft. But the fear no longer led the way.

One evening, just as dusk softened the world, Juan sat beside Diego at bedtime. He smoothed Diego’s hair, voice gentle. “Sometimes people we love most can’t stay. But love, cariño, it stays. Always.”

Diego leaned into him. “Mamá loves me forever?”

Juan nodded. “Always. Even when you can’t see her. Even when you feel sad.”

Diego pressed his hand over his heart. “I feel her, Papá.”

Juan squeezed his son’s small fingers. “Me too, mi cielo.”

On the wall, under the last fading chalk heart, three words remained: “Mommy is here.”

Juan traced them each night as Diego slept, worlds away in his dreams. He realised then that love wasn’t a shadow or a whisper. It was the way Diego smiled, the stories they kept, and the lullabies echoing softly long after the singing ended.

Every morning, new light painted the quiet apartment. Juan understood that sometimes, the things we cannot see are the ones that hold us together. And in that space—between memory and hope, between old fears and new laughter—they learnt to live again.

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